SHE.HER.

since last night, i was feeling so up and down. don't know why i feel so happy ba after heaing his answer. actually i guess i was hiding my emotions or maybe just can't face it brave. since last night till now, is already 2days and i didn't even cry. don't know why, but just can't. i was so upset though i've been searching for his answer very long le. okay la. cause he say he don't think we can still be friends le. why our friendship turn sour lei? for the past week, everyting was alright. nothing happen till it hurts. but cause of a word trust causes our friendship to be totally destroyed. he say he think that we all need sometime to cool down. but actually, we have already not angry with him le nor did we bear grudges against him. but i guess, he must had feel hurt when we 3 say him. i didn't wanted to say much about that incident le, nor say him much but i guess that time the heat of scolding came rushing in when ling and sl also feel angry. but i did thought of what if i really say those things to him, will he get hurt or angry. but, it's too late le. i feel so apologetic against my actions. sorry if i've hurt you by those harsh words. i never once say all that to my friends. really feel so bad. if only he knew that those words wasn't meant to hurt. i guess, my apology came too late le. haiiss. my heart is over burdened right now. so just now we went paris park, i shouted out all my bad feelings. i hope i can feel better, but i can't. this pain is killing me. maybe one day, i learn to let go le and the pain will cease ba. God knows?

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