i lovve eu peeps lots lots. inspite, of ur busy days, eu all still came and celebrate my birthday. i did enjoyed myself and appreciate wad eu all had done. especially tian qin my close fren, de cake eu bake was super delicious and full of sweetness. i super lovve de great choc taste. thankss ah. hehe..oso evania and shu min for their presence. they did make yesterday an enjoyable day. all fun, joy, laughter, and tears light up yesterday treat at seoul garden. ya. i noe yesterday someone heart break, but don cry anymore, cheer up, okie?
den someone say a dirty joke to add on to the atmosphere. it was so lame, tat none of us can guess de ans. lol..but was kinda diaox..den someone was kinda anticipating wad's going to happen next. but got a kid ah, don noe how to eatv properly, kanna de table look so messy and dirty. i guess i was de oly normal one. acting normally. hehe..but i guess, i was kinda bleeding in my pocket. cuz' shagg..my dear dear frens, pls help mii by saving my pocket. thankss eh. wad a splendor yesterday to hang out wid eu peeps. after such a long period of break off frm ex-skool. i'm glad to hear tat eu peeps are doing fine, but still got one who is not doing so gd for de time being. hopefully she ne okie soon. there's alwayy a rainbow after de rain. may all my wishes come true. hope eu peeps do enjoyed urself yesterday. though it was a limited spendthrift day. wud lky to give eu peeps a big hug and kisses to reali thankss eu all. gals, such a surprise to see eu all once again on my birth date. lovely smiles and sweet thots melted my heart. i won foget tis special day tat i experienced. for it wud be a memorable date as i past 16 and heading for a new brand start of 17. may all de blessings i recieved, pass it on to eu all. and i lovve and misses eu peeps. take care:)
I really misses you grandma, where have you been so far? Which part of Heaven are you in now? Are you enjoying yourselves up there? I do not know why I still misses you badly. I guess I still can’t get over your loss. Maybe my heart is so burden. I thought I could be very brave to face all that I’ve been through so far. Going through all the needles pain, the in-out stitches, the operation fears, the vomiting of pain, the unbearable pain and hurts I endure. I guess it can’t be compare to the suffering you been through.
I never knew how it is like to go through all these, but I finally tasted it myself. I realised that I wasn’t as brave as you were. I never ever heard you complained about the suffering, those needles pain. But I know I can never be like you to endure the pains in silence. I wanted to be brave as you taught me to, before I went for my operation, but I really can’t. I don want to face it all alone. I know your presence were with me throughout the operation. Thanks lots. I really appreciate and love you, grandma. I have a request to ask of you, will you be back to celebrate my birthday with me? Do you still remember the day I was born? Will you keep me accompany on my birth date?
I wanted so much for you to be with me, for only in your eyes I can see your love and cares for me. In your eyes, I can see how much worries you carried. Only in your eyes, I can feel that I belong to you and this world. But now I can't see your eyes anymore. I am afraid to bring it to pass. For I know I’m not that brave to do it all alone. For in the eyes of my parents, I can’t feel the special cares you gave me. Do you know you are my pairs of eyes, my pairs of hands, my pairs of legs. Because of you I managed to come so far, to where you want me to be. But when you’re gone, I felt that I do not belong to where I am now. You are the reasons why I choose to fight the long suffering hurts I been through.
I really need you, oh dearest grandma. I wished for a wishing star in the sky, so that i can see you once again. You are my angel, my guardian angel up above the sky. in the night i wished for your appearance, your presence to light up my darkness night, oh dearest grandma. There is this saying that says: [there is a straight line ahead of you if you see things beyond superficially, and the rope you standing on the straight line won’t snap.] I believe you are my straight line. For in you I can see my life being loved by you. I love you always.
