today. is a start of a new week. feel so lost and fearful. cause like walking aimlessly in the crowd. don't know why i feel so lost. haiiss..last friday i went to drink at the pub with my friends. feeling so moody. so i drank quite alot. cups after cups. though at first i got caught up with a high mood, but after all, i got a little sai sai. cause i puked quite..yucks! after drinking so much, i still feel so bottled up inside. haiiss..don't know why still can't get it off me. maybe i need some time ba. recently, i got so upset, cause flashback of my grandma images hit my broken heart. suddenly thought of her again. her caring hand, her loving eyes. don't know why i keep seeing her, the memories of her telling me to be brave when i was at the operating theatre keep flashing back. maybe cause i'm feeling down recently so i keep seeing all these flashback memories ba. really till now still misses her so much. but i know she will always be kept in my heart. dear grandma, no matter where you are, i'll always love you. sorry for me being such a useless grandchild. but thanks for your unfailing love. haiiss.Labels: she here but gone.
