today, when i woke up, i felt so helpless and lifeless. don't know why i feel that i'm falling deeper into a confusion state. a state that i don't know why are my emotions overtaking my happy mood. i just can't help it. i keep telling myself that is pointless thinking of what gonna hurt or what gonna be happy. just like regardless is it a truth or lie. it shouldn't really bother me. but still, i just can't take it easy on myself. trying and searching for the true answer to my confusing heart. maybe is my foolishness to brood over it for too long. i guess i'm not brave enough to take up the courage to know that all is a lie. a beautiful lie that round up the ugly truth. i feel so unhappy and confused. cause i got to choose between her answer and his answer to believe the truth. but seriously, it take me great pains to realise that nothing is true, only lies. i don't wanna go think about who is telling me the truth le. i just want to be alone and think nothing. sounds emo. but shall not drag on. haiiss.Labels: an ugly truth a beautiful lie.
